tornadoesssss

call me weird, but experiencing twisters have always been one of my dreams since several times reading the wizard of oz. if not dream then, err, call it.. erm, interest? and to survive to tell the tale of course, however unlikely that may be. Leena if you're reading this, you're welcome to join me L!=P

the US tornado in the last few days brought another natural reminders for us. alhamdulillah the world is full of reminders. alhamdulillah we're still alive. another chance to edit our accounts and protect ourselves from the final judgement.

to see the strong wind being formed, fast. the dust folded. the gravity sucking things into its empty hollow middle, then thrashing them far back onto the earth, out of its way. the strength.leaving crops wasted and plants uprooted. amazing nature's work of art, bi iznillah.

imagine if all that you've worked for, all these years, destroyed in a split of a second. would u be crying just like those who did? sometimes we cry when we did bad during the exams. sometimes we cry when our house's broken in to, with furniture and electronics gone. sometimes we cry when a beloved dies. gone are the things we've worked hard for, invested much energy, time and wealth in.

its beautiful how the al qur'an uses the destroying wind to illustrate the parables of life.

10:24-25; Verily, the parable of the life of the world is as the water which We send down from the sky; so by it arises the intermingled produce of the earth of which men and cattle eat: until when the earth is clad in its adornments and is beautified, and its people think that they have all the powers of disposal over it, Our command reaches it by night or by day and We make it like a clean-mown harvest, as if it had not flourished yesterday! Thus do We explain the Ayat in detail for the people who reflect.Allah calls to the Abode of Peace (Paradise) and guides whom He wills to the straight path.

18: 45-46;

 And mention the parable of the worldly life: it is like the water which We send down from the sky, and the vegetation of the earth mingles with it, and becomes fresh and green. But (later) it becomes dry and broken pieces, which the winds scatter. And Allah is able to do everything.

let not our deeds, have the same fate as the worldly life. 

janganlah amalan baik kita dihapuskan oleh dosa.
janganlah kita ingat ia x apa, rupa rupanya tidak.
Ya zaljalaaliwal ikram, amitnaa 'ala deenil islam.

Alhamdulillah For Everything

These two photos caught my eye just now, from the Alhamdulillah For Everything page on facebook.   

Feel like sharing.

The Major Sins
--Al-Kaba'r--

The major sins are those acts which have been forbidden by Allah in the Quran and by His Messenger (SAW) in the Sunnah (practise of the Prophet), and which have been made clear by the actions of of the first righteous generation of Muslims, the Companions of the Prophet (SAW).

Allah Most High says in His Glorious Book:

If you avoid the major (part) of what you have been forbidden (to do), We will cancel out for you your (other) evil deeds and will admit you (to Paradise) with a noble entry. (al-Nisa 4:31)

Thus by this verse, Allah Most High has guaranteed the Garden of Paradise to those who avoid the major sins. And Allah Most High also says:

Those who avoid the greatest of sins and indecencies, and forgive when they are angry (al-Shra 42:37) Those who avoid the greatest sins and indecencies, except for oversights, (will find that) surely your Lord is ample in forgiveness. (Al-Najm 53:32)

The Messenger of Allah (SAW) said: "The five [daily] prayers, Friday to Friday, and Ramadan to Ramadan make atonement for what has happenned since the previous one when major sins have been avoided." It is therefore very important to determine exactly what the greatest vices, technically called "the major sins" (Kaba'ir), are, in order that Muslims should avoid them.

There is some difference of opinion among scholars in this regard. Some say these major sins are seven, and in support of their position they quote the tradition: "Avoid the seven noxious things"- and after having said this, the propeht (SAW) mentioned them: "associating anything with Allah; magic; killing one whom Allah has declared inviolate without a just case, consuming the property of an orphan, devouring usury, turning back when the army advances, and slandering chaste women who are believers but indiscreet." (Bukhari and Muslim)

'Abdullah ibn 'Abbas said: "Seventy is closer to their number than seven," and indeed that is correct. The above tradition does not limit the major sins to those mentioned in it. Rather, it points to the type of sins which fall into the category of "major." These include those crimes which call for a prescribed punishment (HADD; plural, HUDUD), such as theft, fornication or adultery (ZINA), and murder; those prohibited acts for which a warning of a severe punishment in the Next is given in the Qur'an or the tradition; and also those deeds which are cursed by our Prophet (SAW). These are all major sins.

Of course, there is a gradation among them, since some are more serious than others. We see that the Prophet (SAW) has included SHIRK (associating someone or something with Allah) among them, and from the text of the Qur'an we know that a person who commits SHIRK will not his sin be forgiven and will remain in Hell forever.

Allah Most High says: Surely, Allah does not forgive associating anything with Him, and He forgives whatever is other than that to whomever He wills. (al-Nisa 4:48 and 116)

01. Associating anything with Allah
02. Murder
03. Practising magic
04. Not Praying
05. Not paying Zakat
06. Not fasting on a Day of Ramadan without excuse
07. Not performing Hajj, while being able to do so
08. Disrespect to parents
09. Abandoning relatives
10. Fornication and Adultery
11. Homosexuality(sodomy)
12. Interest(Riba)
13. Wrongfully consuming the property of an orphan
14. Lying about Allah and His Messenger
15. Running away from the battlefield
16. A leader's deceiving his people and being unjust to them
17. Pride and arrogance
18. Bearing false witness
19. Drinking Khamr (wine)
20. Gambling
21. Slandering chaste women
22. Stealing from the spoils of war
23. Stealing
24. Highway Robbery
25. Taking false oath
26. Oppression
27. Illegal gain
28. Consuming wealth acquired unlawfully
29. Committing suicide
30. Frequent lying
31. Judging unjustly
32. Giving and Accepting bribes
33. Woman's imitating man and man's imitating woman
34. Being cuckold
35. Marrying a divorced woman in order to make her lawful for the husband
36. Not protecting oneself from urine
37. Showing-off
38. Learning knowledge of the religion for the sake of this world and concealing that knowledge
39. Bertrayal of trust
40. Recounting favours
41. Denying Allah's Decree
42. Listening (to) people's private conversations
43. Carrying tales
44. Cursing
45. Breaking contracts
46. Believing in fortune-tellers and astrologers
47. A woman's bad conduct towards her husband
48. Making statues and pictures
49. Lamenting, wailing, tearing the clothing, and doing other things of this sort when an affliction befalls
50. Treating others unjustly
51. Overbearing conduct toward the wife, the servant, the weak, and animals
52. Offending one's neighbour
53. Offending and abusing Muslims
54. Offending people and having an arrogant attitude toward them
55. Trailing one's garment in pride
56. Men's wearing silk and gold
57. A slave's running away from his master
58. Slaughtering an animal which has been dedicated to anyone other than Allah
59. To knowingly ascribe one's paternity to a father other than one's own
60. Arguing and disputing violently
61. Witholding excess water
62. Giving short weight or measure
63. Feeling secure from Allah's Plan
64. Offending Allah's righteous friends
65. Not praying in congregation but praying alone without an excuse
66. Persistently missing Friday Prayers without any excuse
67. Unsurping the rights of the heir through bequests
68. Deceiving and plotting evil
69. Spying for the enemy of the Muslims
70. Cursing or insulting any of the Companiions of Allah's Messenger

Excellence of giving up Elegant Clothes for Humility

1. Mu`adh bin Anas (May ALLAH be pleased with him) reported: Messenger of ALLAH (PBUH) said, "Whoever gives up wearing elegant and expensive garments out of humbleness, when he can do so, ALLAH will call him on the Day of Resurrection and before all the creations, He will give him the choice to wear whichever garment of Iman he would like to wear.'' [At-Tirmidhi].

Commentary: To adopt humility and not to assert superiority over others, according to this Hadith, is an excellent act with ALLAH. `The clothes of Iman' imply those special clothings of Jannah that ALLAH has prepared for sincere believers only.

Excellence of Adopting Moderation in Dress

2. `Amr bin Shu`aib on the authority of his father and grandfather reported: Messenger of ALLAH (PBUH) said, "ALLAH loves to see the sign of His Bounties on his slave.'' [At-Tirmidhi].

Commentary: A simple dress is commendable if one wears it as a gesture of humility wining ALLAH's Pleasure. Yet, to zealously pursue the goal of goodness, to extend a helping hand to the indigent and the needy, to behave favourably towards one's relatives and to wear a fine dress as a manifestation of ALLAH's Favours are equally good acts of high merit. A fine dress is not impeachable in itself but it becomes so, if worn with an air of arrogance and self-importance. On the other hand, an expression of Divine bounty makes it praiseworthy. In other words, it is the intention which makes an act good or bad. Alongside the practice of the example of Messenger of ALLAH (PBUH), the sincerity of action and making right intention, therefore, become indispensable.

Of Furniture

rushingly entering the apartment, i paused and took a loooooong observation of everything in it.they're constant, standing before me, looking so boring. only me, the living one can make the place alive again. the stillness of the furniture, the 1-month pile of layered dust on every surface, the additional specks of dusts floating in the air, each speck reflecting the morning sunlight coming from the window, the dusty window.. it was new year. Happy new year!

how boring it is to live the life of a furniture. reminded me of the essays i used to do back in primary school. the life of a kasut la, pena la, basikal la..

if you can steal a second from the world,creating a jump in between time instead of the normal continuous flow, the ones most affected are the the ones mobile. the outside cars would crash against each other. the airplane would fall from the sky. people in motion would be in weird positions. funny. or not. accidents. deaths. or not. those would be the ones you run out to, as  you are more conscious and aware of them.

time is important for the ones mobile. they change their positions as time goes by. not these stationary furniture. moving creatures and instruments create stuffs. not these stationary furniture. once you close the door, they are not perceived anymore. not from your perspective anyway. totally ignored by the world,. those poor locked up furniture, stationed in their position, living in exile, loyal to their Lord's command. knowing that while the world is looking away and He, is not, it makes you gush over at how ultra infinitely amazing the Almighty is.


after so long and you're back again to have them in view, you remember how you once sat on the couch, how you once stepped on that floor, how you once touched that wood.. you realise those memories flashing back are just the bits of life you once lived. and how one day in the future, you will review these bits of life you've tasted. and they'll be memories. how you once walked on the grass, how you sat on the rock..and how you soon left the earth like how you once left the house. coz you're just a temporary resident..accommodating the space just for a lil while. or a longer while. depends.you realise how incompetent you are,how small you are against the world.against God's will.

for the friend, the housemate, the companion, the teacher, the helper, the sister, the one person for the moment, no longer here with me to continue sharing our lives like the last 2 years, i wish you the best of everything. with you, we have made a house a home. i wish i could have given you more. we are only aware of the ones we're aware of. and when unexpected events occur, it'll require a while to straighten everything up. but it should not take you a while to remember the One who has controlled it all.

for my dear beautiful (sometimes weird=P) companion,

Prophet Muhammad SAW said; whoever has a favour done for him and says to the one who did it "jazakAllahu khayran has done enough to thank him (Tirmidhi)- has done enough means he has thanked him sufficiently, by acknowledging his shortcoming and his inability to reward him so he defers hir reward to Allah so that He might reward him abundantly.

so jazakillah khairan kathiran my dear friend. i will sooooo miss you dearly.. have already been!

many things break your heart, and simply said, we are weak. there are people who only remember our al Khaliq at times of ease and forget Him at times of distress. and there are those who only remember our al Khaliq at times of distress and forget Him at times of ease.
and yet He is All aware of you.

its amazing how you actually live in islam. you watch your every single step. you move you body following the dalil. for the way you walk to school, there's a dalil. for the kind of place you go, theres a dalil. for the way you eat, theres a dalil. for the way you sleep theres a dalil. for your study there's a dalil. when you're wasting time, there's a dalil. when you're too busy the're a dalil. when you're too occupied with worldy gains there's a dalil. when you let go off all your worldly matters, there's a dalil. when you have too much spare time, theres a dalil. when you're sick there's a dalil. when you feel your heart thumps there's a dalil. when you're quiet theres a dalil, when you're loud theres a dalil.what plays in your mind when you're alone, theres a dalil. its like a life full of dalils. a life made with/for zikrullahs.

yea, well how else would you expect.. the world is, after all made for the humans.

 

Amr Khaled

Salam.
For some unknown reason mid last year,
the amr khaled.net page has been reconstructed and many articles are no longer there.

Here are some of his articles, on Allah SWT's names

If you're not much of a reader, (and even if you are) you might prefer the video lectures.
His intonations and facial expressions create better mood and feel in addition to deeper insight of the contents.
I do recommend the videos.
They dont seem to post his lectures with subtitles on youtube though,
but there are some on google.co.uk videos. check them out.

Amr Khaled. May Allah reward him greatly for his work.

wallpaper pics

a beuuuuuttttttttiful desktop wallpaper site for nature,
some fantasies here and there,
but overall such detailed beauty,
imagine the incomparable syurga.

nature pictures

the insignificant us

See the beautiful amazing comparisons between planets, and stars!!!

how can they be sustained naturally, if not well planned?

such Brilliant, Mighty Creator.

Maka sujudlah kamu

Lughaat-al-Qur'an

salam guys!

this is one great link to better understand our classical al qur'an language (lughaatul qur'an.)

http://www.studyquran.org/ArabicDictionaries.htm

yeah, the page might look a bit unattractive and plain, but if you can check out "Lughaat Al Qur'an - by G.A. Parwez (English translation: Word document or PDF document)", 
(2nd line from the top, you'd find some interesting meanings and information iAllah.)


please please PLEASE take some time to read=)))))

If the whole of mankind and the jinn were to gather together to produce the like of this Qur'an, they could not produce the like thereof, even if they backed each other up. (17:88)

of a girl

those pics were taken last week. i was walking home after a sleep over at a azeem's house on lygon street the night before. i actually memang intended to balik rumah around that time so i can see these kids go to school. used to see them often every morning when i was staying on lygon street last year. the small girls were so cute in their white tudungs and bags. nampak sangat tak ada masalah kehidupan. i'd been observing them from a far lagi. rasa mcm nak capture the moment dgn my camera, but i then changed my mind, later i changed my mind again and stopped to take their photo.actually i had already passed them, so i had to patah balik. talk about slow decision making.(the budak lelaki stared at me so i sort of buat2 mcm nak amik gambar the scenery belakang diorg). they were so loud, the girls, too bad i cant understand their language. the pakcik was talking to them about something, probably telling them to be careful crossing the road , which he should! the girls mcm full of stamina to run around everywhere. diorg even main acah2 nak lintas and the pakcik had to tell them off. yeah its not funny, kids.

after the third picture, i stopped snapping and continued looking at them laughing and running. then when diorg tgh nk cross from the tram track, one of the girls leading the run somehow stopped in the middle of the road to look at those behind her (i think one girl called out to her to wait and stop, i cant really tell coz as i said i didnt understand them) and a car loudly and lama2 tekan hon. it was already red light for the pedestrians. she screamed and laughed and cepat2 lari balik towards the tram track where all the others were. i could hear her being scolded by the pakcik. and memang should la. nak main main jugak, tapi situation kene sedar jugak, you're on a road, girl.

so i stopped observing them, continued walking,and stifled a laugh...
which, after a few seconds later, turned out to BE a laugh.

dont get me wrong. its not that i find it funny, her almost being killed like that. its just that i think i understand her,(if she was thinking the way i thought she was la). i think kids, being ignorant as they are, tend to challenge the dangers around them. i used to feel that way too which explains my generalisation. once, i remember trying to feel how its like to drown, so i sort of pulled ainul further into the deeper part of the river we were bathing in and erm, well, kira mcm nak try together drown la konon.=D coz at that time my dad was near,he was also in the water, so i was confident he'll manage to save us before anything bad happens, as he always do. then we both can have an interesting historical STORY to tell people, of "how we survived from drowning".. wouldnt that be coooooooooooool??! ainul wasnt too thrilled about it though, not at all in fact haha, and until now, regardless of how i tried to defend myself, she'll never budge from her accusation towards me, of wanting to kill my own sister. oh!

and i remember a point mentioned by my grandmother last summer. she asked me whether dekat australia selalu ingat mati atau tak. then my mum jawabkan, of course la ingat. and my tok said to me, i'm sure you wouldnt feel too scared of it regardless, because tok and mak masih ada. biasanya org2 muda, selagi mak dia masih hidup, selagi tu la dia akan fikir mak dia yg akan mati dulu. ni tambah2 lagi tok pun masih hidup. takkan terfikir nya la kita akan mati dulu sebelum nenek kita, kan? org2 muda mmg mcm tu.padahal risiko sama je.


so yeah, i recalled them while walking back. that young girl looked so excited after being horned at, and getting off the road alive! she didnt seem worried at all, like it was all fun and games. must have been an experience for her. and the elders (such as the pakcik and myself) thinking of how she should not have done that. thinking how careless that act was. then there's my nenek, thinking how youths dont think of death too often, and how foolish they are not to be aware of it and be prepared. kalau lah org2 yg dah mati were able to talk, imagine THEIR advice. definitely would not be "you live only once, so live life to the fullest".

there's too much ignorance in this world.

Assignment Aftereffects

melbourne nights, sunsets, and a sunrise.

The Beauty of Colours

I have always been interested in colours. Yes, life would be terribly dull without them. But we have been tuned to perceive colours as the material object, instead of realising the mechanics of our colour perception- and what we cannot see.

During high school, i remember learning about how the eyes process the lights around us to create perception. But we didnt go further on that, and i didnt try to go intensively on that chapter either, coz basically, we all studied FOR exam lol. Then interestingly, during IB, i got the chance to take higher level biology, and we indulged ourselves in neurons and the brains..and i got the chance to learn literature from Dr Reed, and we indulged ourselves in sensing the hidden meanings of words and sentences, and create imaginations and perceptions of our own.THAT'S LITERATURE people!

Most significantly, during IB, i learned Theory of Knowledge (TOK) by MR Shaw, and one of the main chapters of the subject is on "what is true and what is not". It did touch about how do we know a true religion a bit, (i remember osem sending warning messages to all of us about this), but i will not explain on that part. But TOK also touched a lot on our perceptions of the world, one specific task was whether colours are true.

Now in uni, all praise to Allah, i was moved enough to take psychology, which led me to the task of researching on how lights and colours affect our perceptions. And later today, i'm assigned to watch the sunset and write a report about it, or something like that.

Colour is a perception. They are distinguished by the light’s wavelengths generated through the eyes, and our brain processes this information to produce a visual display (IN THE BRAIN) that we experience as colours. This means that colours only exist within the brain. All along, it is solely light that is travelling from the object to our eyes,and it is solely light that we are actually seeing/watching, the object itself is not coloured, do you get what i'm trying to say?.

I wont go deeper into the scientific mechanism of how we derive light, coz its toooooo long, i'd have to touch on the eyeballs and neurons and brain parts,but basically,visible light that we see is merely just a small part of the full electromagnetic spectrum, which extends from cosmic rays at the highest energies down through the middle range (gamma rays, X- rays, the ultraviolet, the visible, the infrared, and radio waves) all the way down to the lowest energies. We see only the visible. In simple words, our eyes and brain do not provide visual perception of the non-visible light from the sun. In simpler words,we don't see everything. full stop=)

However, some animals can be different;

1. Bees
We see red,they see black+ uv purple,
we see orange they see yellow/green,
we see Yellow they see Yellow/green+Uv purple,
we see green they see green,
we see blue, they see blue+Uv violet,
we see violet they see Blue+Uv blue,
we see Purple they see Blue,
we see White they see Blue green,
we see Black and they see black.

2. Dogs
Instead of seeing the rainbow as violet, blue, blue-green, green, yellow, orange and red, dogs would see it as dark blue, light blue, grey, light yellow, darker yellow (sort of brown), and very dark grey. In other words, dogs see the colours of the world as basically yellow, blue and grey.

3. Birds
Birds typically can see far better than humans can. Their colour perceptions are those of humans + uv rays.

4. Deep sea fish
Until recently it was believed that deep-sea fish were unable to see red light, as these wavelengths are filtered out before reaching deep water. It turns out that a variety of these fish see colours in red, and this fluorescence is visible for short distances.

5. Snakes
Certain species of snake have thermal pits in addition to their eyes, extending their spectral range into the infrared.

6. Bulls.
Interestingly, bulls are not able to distinguish colour and would see the bullfighter’s red cape in shades of grey. They follow its movements, but do not perceive it as red - the red colour is only useful in its effect on the human spectators.

A recent debate was initiated by Liz Elliot, when Liz claimed that pink is not a colour, as it does not exist in the spectrum of visible light i.e. the rainbow. She goes on to explain that when red and violet light (longest and shortest wavelength) enters the eyes at the same time, our brain processes these two extremes by inventing a new colour halfway; which is THE VERY VERY BEAUTIFUL COLOUR PINK. So, pink is our brains' own creation, not existing in the spectrum of colours. And if its just a mind's creation, its nothing more than a perception.

When people see new colours, they tend to ask, “Has someone invented a new colour?”.I once asked my mum that, and she thinks i think too much hah.Well, they have not, but they certainly have invented new materials that produce colours (reflect/absorb lights) that people could not make before. Things like new paints, new inks, new kinds of televisions.However, when we experience new colours, we tend to think that they are invented. That is because colour is truly a perception that is unique to our brains and we tend to consider any new colour experiences as new "inventions",when its not.

We even dream in colours! And why wouldn't we? What we see in dreams is believed to be stimulation of the visual areas of the brain from the brain itself rather than from our eyes. If those areas of the brain can help us perceive colour based on the signals from our eyes when we are awake, why shouldn't they also be able to produce colour perceptions when stimulated by the brain?

Now come to think of these, if different beings can see different and limited sets of colours their whole lives, then the colours we see are not exactly there, right? And, if there are colours like pink, which are totally invented by the brain itself, then, that colour does not exactly exist if our brain disfunctions right? And, when we can even perceive colours when asleep and with our eyes close, then those colours don’t exactly exist right?If we only manage to see colours because we have a part of our brain that perceives light that way, then if we dont have that brain anymore, the colour cease to exist. It wont be there anymore, its not material.

I'm very intrigued by the fact that the colours we see, are our own creations.sorry, i mean, our "mind's" own perception. its almost like we ARE living in a world of perception. or a world of imaginations. or a world dreams. we only say the world's a reality because this is the ONLY dream that we keep back coming to, that we keep wake up to, apart from the ones we see in sleep, or the ones in the other dimensions. And just imagine, when we wake up to the day of judgement, even this world of so-called-reality cant be denied its similarity to just-a-dream.

In the midst of our varied ability to perceive different wavelengths, Allah SWT has stated in the al Qur’an, “No vision can grasp Him, but His grasp is over all vision” (surah al An’am; 103), signalling how our Creator the Almighty knows the limitations and differences of the visions of His creations.Wallahu'alam.

when painting wont do

ask me for an advice,i'll tell you to try your hand on painting if not drawing. i believe indulging your mind into those tit bits of every dot can swing your whole view point to another height. ok,farisa roslan would say i'm being my over exxagerating self again, but its true!try it.

one time during this summer break, i tried to do this family portrait. its still there, right in front of me depan this laptop, unfinished, coz i couldnt help laughing every time i try to continue.

you see, there i was with the family photo in one hand and a pencil in the other, having finished sketching mak,ainul,mine,nisa,ifa and ayah's head and then perfectly trying to sketch ayah's t-shirt, which is crumpled from holding newborn baby ifa. the baju was rather difficult to be sketched as i could not figure out how the shape of the baju could come out to be.its like there are many extra lumps of red cloth on ayah's red t shirt, on the left side.so i sat there for bout a few minutes wondering what in the world that cloth is. in the picture, nisa seemed to be sitting on the sofa head right behind him, so there's no way by any chance the cloth could be hers..unless she wasnt sitting on the sofa head, but leaning on ayah's back with her kaki tangled to his side till her red shorts kind of nampak mcm ayah's own red baju. and the latter true..somehow all this realisation seemed too humorous to me as i connected how the real shape of nisa's red shorts should look like to the one i've drawn as ayah's extra piece of cloth, thus i couldnt stop laughing and cursing little nisa for sitting on top of poor old ayah (who in the picture doesnt seem to mind), and for making me confused.knowing nisa, should she know that in the future i would get my hands randomly on this photo and examine her so called princess-like position,she'd position herself a lil bit better.but who can guess the future huh.

pictures do tell a thousand of stories yeah..and when you draw the little bits and pieces, there tend to be some funny sides of it too, the ones you tend to miss if you only look at it by a glance of two.drawing makes you appreciate stuffs,and further comprehend them. so do try.
and another thing i realised, its much more difficult to draw the smiley faces of the ones who are not with you anymore..and your own smiley faces when you were with them.

ramadhan the first with love

yesterday which was first of ramadhan, a friend of mine's grandmother,passed away.and what's more,she died after we finished our solat tarawih here in melbourne,which means,sana kat malaysia,it would have been during maghrib;which means betul2 the start of ramadhan.may that be the best for her. from Allah we came and to Allah we'll return.definitely.al-fatihah..

one thing i realised early this year kan,when my sister nisa was sent to hospital was,that it hurt me so badly to know that she was suffering in pain.even though i wasnt even there to see her cry,or to witness the operation and all,the thought of her "feeling" the pain and being frightened, the thought of me unable to do anything to ease her burden and share the kesakitan,and the thought of her having to go through all those scary stages of operation alone,and most importantly,the though of how my mum is feeling,were enough for me to be disturbed every single day and to cry as well.i have always wanted (and "tried" though many many many countless times failed) to be the one whom my sisters can turn to,and seek advice from etc.and the feeling of unable to save nisa then, was seriously terribly saddening,almost like a failure of myself.

anyway,back to what i realised hehe,it was that,what if i can see nisa suffering from death itself?that would be more traumatic kot,to the power of infinity.lets say she dies (ya Allah panjangkanlah umur adikku) if i can actually see and know how she is being questioned,how she is being treated by the malaikats and etc...and the fact of how multipliedly frightened she'll be, coz she'll have to experience all that alone without suport too,imply how much MORE helpless i will be nanti.i cant imagine how i am going to feel if i ever be given the chance to witness THAT.

if we see someone whom we have loved and taken care of,whom we have groomed from kecik sampai besar,whom we have helped and protected from harm,if we see that someone being tortured nanti (na'uzubillah)..that would surely excruciatingly disturb us so much more than if we see him or her being tortured by a painful illness here on earth kan?clearly humans are so powerless,not just for their family but even for our own selves.how FRUSTRATING is that?..see how much we actually need Allah's forgiveness and blessings and help?.

may my friend's grandmother be given forgiveness,dan dimudahkan urusannya.amin~

and happy fasting everyone!
happy fasting aleen,fatin,kay,fida,jiha,maryam,aiman,pau,amien,mirul,khairul,osem,hafiz!!
happy fasting bila,ain,ejan,suha,piya,che nat,pikah,kuya,nana,sya.
happy fasting hannah,ainin,zuhra,awin,tihah,mek yah!
i love you all.

BY THE WAY!!its almost spring here!weeeeeeeeeeee.new leaves are popping out.one time ni i walked along a pathway with trees and flowers along both sides,and omg,the air actually smells!
i was like,"wait,am i just imagining this, but is the pollen-concentration betul2 high?" gile jakun.
here are some pictures i took of half blooming/already bloomed flowers on the way to uni=D
have no idea the names of these plants,i should go check them out.and there are a lot more photos,maybe i'll upload them later.cheers!!!!






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exam rush

final exam's on the way in two weeks tyme..
wish me luck people..
and oh aleen and fatin,do invite me smula to read your blog.grrr

some reflections of what we are..

ahahaha sorry people for late posts..its not that i have been so occupied with stuffs (i'm still an active facebook member) ..its just that i've been having so many things to talk about but then i kept thinking that i should keep them to myself and express to others whom i'll be meeting face to face..get what i mean?and sometimes i try to type them down and they went up to be so long that i decided that its too long for a post so i deleted them again and again.kenapa laaa begini..aleen,fatin,kay,mary i need you to check my essays hmm..

anyway,melbourne is indeed very nice,though nice is too simple for a description.i'm staying in a students apartment, alone,hopefully planning to move out ngn azeem next year and live together kat another block.=) there have been a lot of open houses and a lot of garage sales lately,even yesterday agnes and ze ying went to a garage sale somewhere,and another one they went last two weeks ago.omg the garage sales here are worth it believe me,so people coming to melb,inform me if nk cari cheap stuffs,i know where=)

the days are sometimes hot yeah,but the winds are basically always always cold,so knowing myself yg tak tahan sejuk,i'll bring along a jacket or sweater everytime i go out just in case.but its sooo kering.reminder to others who are coming to any parts of australia:pakai moisturisers and creams and minum banyak air.if in malaysia you drink 8 glasses everyday,try to get ten glasses everyday in aust..insyaAllah water wont kill you ha3.

one thing that kept me thinking..ever since the last few years people have been asking me (i'm not sure whether its randomly or purposely) about whether i'm an extremist or not..even during ib some people come up to me utk tanya zahra you're not an extreme muslim kan?even here in melbourne i got a few people asking me the same thing..

can i get things right..to some future askers and future answerers/explainers..i dont think there should be any labelling between muslims. and i dont agree with muslims saying that they are not an extremist,coz to me, i think if you are a true muslim or if you are trying to be a true muslim, then you should be an extremist.being a muslim simply means penyerahan diri sepenuh penuhnya to the one and only God.isnt that an extreme already?you dont divide any other attention,or purpose or reason for living other than for Allah SWT.and every single day you claim that ibadatku,hidupku,matiku hanyalah utk Allah SWT during your prayers.if you are a true muslim then you should understand what you are saying.and if you understand then you should also mean it,that everything is really is only for Allah SWT.so if everything is for Allah SWT,then that is an enough definition for an extreme kan?everyday,you vow to be an extremist,and so everyday you should berusaha utk menjadi one.

its only when the misguided definition of an extreme muslim happens that we muslims ourselves think that being a lesser extremist is better and more closer to the real meaning of a true muslim.coz if you label terrorists who kill non muslims who havent done them any harm as extremists,that doesnt really show an extremist of islam coz they did not fully embody the islamic moral and teachings which strictly prohibited muslims from endangering non muslims who didn't start the attack,and that attacks on a muslim's part should only be for self defence..coz an extreme muslim would be treating non muslims gently and respectfully coz Allah told us to, and would be telling the truth about everything coz Allah told us to, and would never harm someone else's body and properties coz Allah told us not to, and would help his or her brothers and sisters coz Allah told us to and would only talk when necessary and when it would bring goodness to talk because Alah told us to..these are extremes,coz you only do goodness to other people and to yourself because of Allah,and because you bow to Allah's orders and not to anyone or anything else.everything that you do is not because of a simple lust, instead you develop your lust and your wants and your characteristics/personality in line with what Allah told you to be.i think that's extreme enough, and yes we should be an extreme in seeking and doing goodness.so be proud to be one(and be proud to try to be one).=)

and talking about a true muslim,learning the meaning of Qur'an and hadiths is an obligation for all muslims,so all of us should study and understand what being a muslim stands for, and practice it.we always admire those people who have reverted to Islam,thinking that they have gone through all the thinking and learning processes and finally achieved their best own decision and understanding of the true belief so they have reached a high level of kemanisan iman..but that is actually compulsary for all of us,not just for a non muslim who is seeking the truth but also for us muslims who also should be seeking.

one of the reasons for syirik is because of mengikut the footsteps of nenek moyang.the people of jahiliyyah followed the teachings and actions of their fathers without questioning and thinking...now,what would you do if you're not borned and raised as a muslim?..would you simply follow your parents' religions and beliefs without further studying them?ask yourselves..maybe because you're scared they'd disown you if you convert to another religion or something of your own personal conflicts..

dont you think that if you claim to be a muslim,just because you're borned as one and not because you really understand it and fully practise it,then you'd kinda be just the same as mengikut the footsteps of others and the nenek moyangs which thus means that you're not really a true muslim?...

then you cant just simply claim that you'll get to heaven jugak in the end coz you've already stated the kalimah syahadah and thus you're officially a muslim already. that is truely a lie,you're lying to yourself and to others, but of course never to Allah swt..dont expect much happy endings if you're only a muslim by words and physical..we need to seek it too,not just a non muslim.it is indeed a kewajiban,so dont take it easy.learn.and learn some more..

Melbourne

it's nice=)

the cartoons

you know that people say that tv programmes influence your kids?do you believe it?to a large or small extent??

i dislike Courage the cowardly dog
coz i think i saw some kid acting like one
i dislike pingu
coz i think i saw some kid walking like one
i dislike spongebob
coz i think i saw some kid talking like one

uuughhh but who cares.you cant protect everyone from everything kan.they're all in the process of growing up and learning..and the childhood years of "believing in the magical world of imagination"


cheers!

A skip of the heartbeat..No More IB Yeay!!

THE INTERNATIONAL BACCALAUREATTE DIPLOMA PROGRAMME IS NOW OFFICIALLY OVER!!THE WHOLE TWO YEARS ARE OVERRRR!!
~background music : fire crackers,bombs,canon balls,guns~

actually tak tau nak rase mcm mana.i'm very relieved, but not too happy as i'm still so nervous waiting for the results in january. even when after french tadi we all (the girls je) jumped into the d'shire swimming pool (since the guards kat school tak bagi we all jump into the school's swimming pool without permission by a teacher, and fyi all teachers have gone for their kursus), i am very aware that the portrayal of happiness and excitement shown by the jumping and splashing and screaming and laughing does not reflect much of my feelings at that time at all, i jumped mainly for the sake of joining and making a splash of termination-beginning gap between ib and the upcoming new life of not sure yet what) i've done the best i can,prayed as hard as i can,i hope the outcome would be the best for me and family. Allah The Almigty knows.and i hope i'll have the strength of menerima segala ketentuan, frustration or nikmat dgn hati yg sabar and bersyukur. my dad always say, the greater the challenge, the more significant is Allah's love..i miss ayah..

Its been soo long since i 've been writing now mcm tak tau nk start kat mana though i know i've got plenty to blog about.i believe that i've been different eversince the few weeks before the exam. i'd shown most of my friends the worst of me at times and i do apologise. its not that i mean it..and i believe my friends especially my darling housemates had also shown the worst of themselves.you guys realised kan that when i'm stressed up i'll spend all the time i can get to be quiet and isolated, most importantly to be alone. and different people act differently at times of stress as exemplified by you guys=) i've realised some becoming more sarcastic and cold and more of a teaser,and some increasing the nagging habit=P hehe and some increasing their complaints and nonsence talk.it was fun observing,but of course i didnt spend time observing much pun coz i was too busy with myself and my own emotions to bother others at first..until the epiphany (moment of realisation or moment of truth, remember literature students??)datang..when maryam cried and everybody berkumpul and start la all this sesi luahan hati as we called it.and everybody was like mmm...oooo...kenape???...dont worry.. haha. it felt so good talking.to kay again i'm sorry i was sarcastic( i was never sarcastic to you kan hehe) to maryam i'm sorry i lose myself into all those messiness, to my farah nasuha farinordin i'm terribly sooo sorry that i had forgotten your birthdayyyy huuuu ..my mind was unsettled.is this the outcome of not taking english literature A1 seriously during the first year?i'm not quite sure. haha.

omg i really am gonna miss you ib mates la. i wonder how in the world we somehow MANAGED to get close to each other when we're all so very different in terms of everything! and i mean everything as in personality, physical caracteristics, tastes, needs and wants. i remember one time when me and my again beloved darling housies were lepak lepaking on the queen matress in the living room. remembered our dialogues in identifying one another's differences very well though not with any sequence..haha, see if you guys can identify who's who.

housie01: i rase smua org dlm rumah ni cacat except me and jiha je normal.

housie02: helllooooo you yg paling cacat.i tak penah jumpa anyone yg suara loudspeaker like you.

housie03: betul betul!i pun tak penah jumpa anyone yg suara kuat like you.

housie04: and i pun tak penah jumpa org yg boleh buat suara mcm soprano like you.

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg bila angkat phone nada dia hellooOOOO like you.

housie04: i tak penah jumpa org yg happy dgn a hair like yours.

housie05: i tak penah jumpa org yg feminine like you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg bila jogging je sakit lutut terus like you

housie04: i tak penah jumpa org yg suka camwhore like you

housie05: i tak penah jumpa org yg boleh tak makan mcm you

housie04: i tak penah jumpa org yg menangis on the phone kuat2 like you

housie05: i tak penah jumpa org yg blur mcm you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg ketawa kuat kuat mcm you

housie01: i tak penah jumpa org yg as messy as you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg kat atas table dia ada everything like you

housie04: i tak penah jumpa org yg as fair as you.

housie01: i tak penah jumpa org yg pemalas mcm you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg suka nagging like you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg boleh tido mana mana like you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg tak makan batang sayur like you.

housie04: i tak penah jumpa org yg talkative gile non stop like you.

housie04: i tak penah jumpa org yg bila sneeze lawak like you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg suara mcm you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg fashion taste mcm you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg bila lapar menangis mcm you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg cakap ngn mak dia kuat mcm you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg jalan mcm samseng like you

housie02: i tak penah jumpa org yg makan laju mcm you

5 je yg active talking at that tyme coz jiha tgh dgn laptop and only mendengar and laugh.and housie03 and housie01 suggested a lot of other "i tak penah jumpas" but i forgot da their ideas..yeah yeah we're all very much and widely diverted kan.you know, i believe kan, opposites do not attract, they only contribute to the sustainability of a relationship/friendship.they contribute to the tides and waves of the constant sea of human relation (thanks to faizal i'm kinda influenced by his use of metaphors) which invigorate the feelings and deepen the understandings.

to the june batch of 2007, i wish you guys the best of luck. i must agree with khairul in that i also think that it is too late to change a higher level subject from english a1 to malay a1, and i had personally told hanis and sofia this. coz seriously 6 more months to go, its quite short a time for such drastic change.but then again if you guys are confident in yourselves and in your choices, go ahead with it and i wish you good luck. but please take note that what khairul wrote in his blog is basically an opinion, something to think about, suggesting some perceptions which you might not have seen.i did not expect such emotional responses.

D.A.F.F.O.D.I.L.S

Daffodils

I wander’d lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o’er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the Milky Way,
They stretch’d in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay;
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced, but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee;
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

William Wordsworth

and here comes the remedy.

MOCK'S OVER!!!!!!!

yipppeeeee!!! i feel like shouting and screaming and jumping and hugging people in joy after the last paper.wanted to shout out there and then

ALEEEENNNNN!!!!

or FATINEEEEEEE!!!

or FIDAAAAAAAA

or MARYYYYYYY!!

or JIHAAAAAAA!!

or EGGGGIIIEEEEEEE!!!!

or KAAAAAYYYYYY!!

but of course la..no can do.. sadly everybody else smua da balik. sad gille nak mampus. only those sitting for bio paper je yang pegi skola on thursday and friday, and after that last paper 3 kan….ehem…

in class the instant mr soong passed me by taking away the paper

me: siangie..(smiling to siang hang, he sat in front of me, the next row)
siang hang: finally ( he smiled)
ju anne : we're free ( smiled)

outside the class in the hallway by the classroom door

me: freedom comes in the end leganyeee but tak rasa happy sgt kan?
siang hang: ya laa, because all the others are not here to share our joy maa. so unfair. they can celebrate their happiness with us tapi kite..da too late.
me: yeah, and its damn quiet in the school jugak .if they're all in the apartment it wouldnt be too frustrating. the problem is, maryam and jiha da balik, agnes kat genting, and KAY's sleeping! i think i wanna call kay now lah, cant stand it.( and so i called her and happily woke her up)

and then me and ju anne went back in siangie's car.mcm tu je our so called YEAYYYY!! at school. sobs.=(

but putting that 'factor' of frustration aside, i am indeed very relieved that we'd all finished our trial. i think overall, i did quite ok la kot, emphasising the KOT, considering the few unsatisfying answers here and there, the few mistakes and carelessness in some, the few tak cukup masa, and the one BIG WORST FLUNKing ESSAY,.. All those blunders i think i can overrule them with more practice.

PRACTICE NEEDED!

About 80 more days to go, and by November, hopefully I’ll have enough practices. This full format trial really wears me out. Why on earth didn't we have full format exams before? The school should provide us with more than one exposure of this, since last year lagi. Then only we wouldn't have been too surprised and stressed up for two whole weeks. And I could have had a better time management and practice in writing English essays. Feel like crying bila teringat balik that English paper. have you ever experienced finishing an essay which you're very sure that THAT is the best you can do and the best and only ideas you have, but at the same time you're also very VERY sure that THAT is inadequate, too vague plus lack of in depth analysis and that THAT could never guarantee you an A in English. Now when I think of fatin I’ll be thinking of “PEMIMPIIIIIIIN” (with fingers waving at each other).this is just what we all as pemimpin have to go through aite fatin? kita pemimpin.=)

My plan for this holiday. The theme of my august holiday is…

Date with the past years Qs.

Monday

Read ‘An Evil Cradling’ and ‘Wind Sand and Stars’

Tuesday

Do all economics past years’ questions

Wednesday

Do all mathematics past years’ questions

Thursday

Bio. Read biology. Finish up the whole option G and option H. and half of the core subject at least.

Friday

Do all business and management past years’ questions

Saturday

French essays. Practice. And also grammar and vocab.

My 7 year old brother Thalhah pun baru finished his test recently and mak called me just to talk about how funny his answers were, especially for BM.

One question:

Ini adalah baju _________.

Thalhah’s answer: Ini adalah baju SEMBAHYANG!

And he said “sbb kan ayah pakai baju ni kalau sembahyang..”

Ini adalah ­_________.

Thalhah’s answer: Ini adalah AYAH!

and when asked why he didn’t write down DOCTOR, he said

“sebab man tu nampak mcm ayah je..”

For English, there’s this nursery rhyme, where you have to fill in the blank of the third and fourth lines so that it is similar to the first and second like this:

Piece porridge hot piece porridge cold

Piece porridge in the pot nine days old

Father like it hot father like it cold

Father like it in the pot nine days old

But thalhah wrote:

Piece porridge hot piece porridge cold

Piece porridge I the pot nine days old

Father likes it COLD father likes it COLD

Father likes it in the pot ONE days old.

When asked he said “sebab thalhah rase ayah tak suka makan porridge yg panas sgt and sbb thalhah rasa ayah tak suka makan porridge yang dah lama sampai 9 days old!”

Everything is related to ayah. And as I laughed out loud with my mum over his answers.( well, for one thing, he didn’t go to kindergarten, so this is kinda like his first year really sitting for formal tests, so all of us are very excited in keeping up with how he’s coping), I realised that actually kan, his answers are in fact clever ones. the justifications are arguable for a seven year old. He actually took the effort in understanding the meaning of the words and visualising the pictures and their functions. And he answered based on those creative thoughts, and not based on what the question typed asked for.

Now THAT is the Child Mozart in you, THAT is the Child Mozart that hasn’t been destroyed and kept unattended in the inner garden of the mind, THAT is the work of the GARDENER the guardian of the inner wisdom and THAT is the real MAN, with the spirit breathed upon the clay.

The education system I think to some extent brings the machine-like systematic thinking out of children. maybe its because of the ways the teachers teach which lead to less imagination, I don’t know, coz ye la kan, I came from this same education system jugak. Like what mr masukor says, mathematics actually comes from imagination, it is when you visualise the maths and problems and not seeing it through the numbers on the paper.

tick tock..4 minutes.

Assalamualaikum.Saya sebagai Menteri Belia dan Sukan Sri KDU mengalu alukan warga IB utk active menonton SUKAN Olimpik Beijing.Mari kita sama2 mencontohi naziha abdullah yang always thinks about badminton until she HAS to refer batman as badminton, dan awang mohd faizal yang is very concerned about the time we had to go to nadiya's bithday party so as not to clash with Olympic on tv, and be enthusiastic and excited like them dlm menyokong industri sukan dunia.oh yeah! Semoga kita semua sihat wal'afiat insyaAllah.Saya yng menurut perintah: fatimah zahra.

formal enough?

two more subjects to go for mock exam.The two most fretted killer subjects -

BIOLOGY
i doubt whether i can memorise all...

ENGLISH LITERATURE A1
analysing peoms and literature works..comparing and contrasting the evil cradling and wind,sand and stars..

practice zahra.

and a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY i wish to the 7th august girls

YVONNE LAI
NADIYA NAIR
and darling AINUL MARDHIAH

i wish the three of you all the best things in life.

...hurm..teringat pulak the topic debate during f3, 'all the best things in life are free'.